Check out the web site for the law firm that I work for. It was started by my husband, Greg Broiles, who is an estate planning and tax attorney.
August 15, 2009
Why is waiting so difficult?
I am finally going to make an attempt at maintaining a blog. I have had this web site set up for several years and never have done anything with it. Since I am starting a new adventure in my life – namely, Law School – now is as good a time as any to start blogging. If nothing else, it will give me a place to rant and complain about my workload, professsors, etc.
I have thoght about going to law school for about 5 years now. It never seemed to be the “right time” to do it. I should/could have gone while I worked at ALZA (part of J&J), and I could have gotten them to pay for all or most of it and even gone to a school like Santa Clara School of Law. Hindsight is 20/20. Who would have known that I would leave ALZA and decided to go to work with Greg (my husband) in his estate planning law firm 2.5 years ago? Now, I am doing paralegal work in adddition to marketing, office management, billing and anything else that needs to get done. It has been a lot of work, yet I have liked the challenge and the learning of new things. That is my nature, I guess. I have decided that I don’t want to continue to be a paralegal indefinitely, so I either need to go back to work in pharma, or get a law degree. I am pretty much done with the corporate politics present in even small companies, so I have chosen to go to law school. I am very interested in learning about law, and I feel ready and able to do it. My biggest concern is having to continue to work in our practice and go to school at night. That will be a challenge in terms of work load. I will ahve to manage my time wisely and become efficient at things and let other things go — keeping my priorities straight, of course. I guess my other big concern in the so-called “Socratic Method” – this pretty much scares the be-jeezus out of me. I have read that it is not as bad as it sounds, so we’ll see.
That brings me around to the topic of today’s blog… Why is waiting so difficult? I applied to law school last Fall and was accepted at Lincoln Law School of San Jose. I decided to defer and did not start. I put it out of my mind until about 2 months ago when I realized that it was summer and Fall was just around the corner. Every few days I would have fleeting thoughts like, “Should I start law school this year?” and “I wonder if I need to reapply?”. I didn’t do anything about these thoughts until the end of July, when I contacted the school and asked these very questions. As it turns out, all I needed to do is sign up to take the LSAT (which I have not yet taken), and I will be accepted to start this Fall. So, I did that and received my acceptance letter. A mere two weeks have passed since I decided to start school this fall, and the waiting has been excruciating. I can’t imagine what it would be like if I had to wait months instead of weeks to start. I want to know what law school will be like and it is hard to sit back and wait. I am reading two books about what it is like to be a first year law student, and it is kind of scaring me. Part of me thinks, “No problem… I am smart, I made it through engineering school, how hard can this be?” and the other part is thinking, “Oh crap! How am I going to read all of these giant books and be ready to answer questions about the cases whenever the professor decides to call on me?”. My point is, I wish I did not have to wait and think all of these thinks. Let’s go! Bring it on! Let’s get this party started!
I don’t have much longer to wait. Monday at 6:40 pm is my first class, Intro to Law. Now, all I need to decide is where I should sit. In the front, the back, the middle??? You see my point? I’ll let you know what I decide and how it goes. I feel like I did before my first day of junior high.